Bebelina 

World domination.

What if, I thought, it was a good thing that USA is trying to get world domination? Maybe it is natural part of the evolution of humanity. Maybe we need to be united under one goverment to be able to treat the Earth more responsibly and also to get resources enough to actually make space travlel possible for a larger amount of the population. This would then be a further step in human evolution. We can't stay on Earth forever as a species if we want to survive, because as we all know the sun will not last forever. I'm not saying that this is right or even that securing the humanitys survival is a good thing, just that it's natural for humanity as such, as it is for all life, to strive for survival and therefore this could be a logical scenario.
So maybe globalisation is what we ultimatilly should be embracing instead of fighting it off. To unite as a planet. Then the goverment would have stop destroying the Earths resources, because now all belongs to them and all is their responsibility. Then the wellfare of the whole planets population would also be very important, because all are citicens of planet Earth and have equal value and equal rights. As we DO really, but it's not a reality for the larger part of humanity as it is now.
This was just a new road I travelled on in my mind, just a possibility with no moral attachments, nothing to go nazi about. ;)

About selling a painting.

I think it was about two years ago that I sold a painting to a man in Turqey and the distribution part was a big hoopla with FedEx and all. Then there were big problems with cashing in the check here, evidently the swedish bank is very reluctant about doing that, so in one bank it would have costed about half of what the check was worth to get cashed and it could tale over a month to get it verified. Insanity...well, I was lucky and found a serviceminded bankperson who helped out much faster and cheaper. Those persons are rare in banks mind you. Well, at least I have a painting on the other side of the planet almost and that's a pretty self fulfilling feeling.

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Bebelina in Finland.

As the lady of the lake.

Serial babblers.

I know a lot of them serial babblers. They are horrible. You can't get them to stop talking no matter what you do.
It's like a mental disease they're having.
As soon as there is a pause in their monologue and one thinks that one could actually have time to say something, then they either don't listen( they think that when someone else is talking is only a good opporunity for them to think of what to say next) or interrupt immediately of the shock of hearing someone elses voice in their head.

Question.

How far have we come when nature is something you don't live in, but have to travel to?

The mean friend and the rain.

When I was about 3 years old I had a friend named Annika. She lived in the same house. If I was going outside I always had to check if she was there first. The problem with her is that she was mean. She used to kick me on the legs just for fun. I had big bruises on them. She would start by asking if she could kick me on the legs and then I always answered no, then she said that if she couldn't kick my legs she was not going to be my friend anymore. She was two years older than me so she had had the misfortune of developing a sadistic sense. Her parents were probably not treating her very well, otherwise children do not naturally act that cruel. Insecure as I was I sometimes let her kick me on the legs because I was afraid of not having a friend. The idea of getting new friends had obviously not hit me. My father caught her once doing this and banned her from the house. I was not allowed to play with here anymore. I was upset by this, because now I had no firend. And I did never got a new friends on that yard either. It was the yard of evil.
I remember once when we were still friends and playing outside and a sudden rain came falling down on us, it fell hard and long and I had never seen a rain like this before. It was like a million fawcetts had been opened and their water poured down on us. When the water hit the ground it bounced back in the air for a few decimeters. We got drained immediately and ran in panick to a carpetrack and hid from the water.
Our parents saw us and came out on their balconys shouting "come in, come in!", but the water poured so hard that we didn't dare. Our parents kept shouting si finally Annika took courage to herself and ran indoors. I was left alone in the rain.
My parents yelled again, but they sounded angry now, the situation was getting hysterical. I thought it was quite fascinating to sit there and watch the rain hit the ground up close. It was like being in a fairytaleworld. I was unsure about going inside since they were angry now, so I must have done something wrong with being here, and I was also unsure about wether the rain was dangerous or not to run through. It looked dangerous and the hysteria in their voices gave the same indication, so I asked "Is it dangerous?" They frist said "no", then "yes", then went back to "come in!". This made me more confused. Did they want me to run throught the dangerous rain? Could I be in more danger if I didn't?
Or was it dangerous? Annika had made it inside safely. After running different probable scenarios in my head I decided to run. While I ran I was creaming out of fear of not knowing wether what I was doing was dangerous or not. I must have liked the feeling, the thrill, because now I often run head over heald into things I don't know anything about, just out of curiosity and sometimes just for the adventure of conquering a new fear. Can I do this? I'm going to find out.
Sometimes I fail, but then I know it's only because I didn't try hard enough, it was not that important, it was just for the ride, to screaming run through the rain again.

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A bibleqoute.

I'm not usually a fan of those, but this one I like:

From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.

Luke 12:48

Reality shows.

The problem with reality shows is that it causes the participants a lot of mental and emotional damage.
I don't think most of them are aware of the enormous angst and depression that can follow by being filmed all day and then not knowing what they will show on tv, how you will be portrayed.
I think these kind of shows should take a break and some investigation on how it effects the participants should be done before they continue. But the tv companies are only interested in making money, so I doubt they would care. Because people watch these things and want to see more and more and want to interact with the people on tv, it has the potentials of becoming a live videogame with flesh and blood characters.



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Kevin Costner.

I have been thinking of Kevin Costner and his life work for a few days...
What I was thinking was that Costner has been so mocked for his sleezy patriotic selfglorifying films for so long, that there must really be something in them that really touches people in for many perhaps an uncomfortable way.
Or that they get embarrased that he touched them so deeply with those cheap movie tricks, like slowmotion riding with powerful music in the sunset.
But it's a tremendous gift, however shamelessly delivered. He can really touch people.
And this I was thinking after I turned on the tv and caught the end of a Kevin Costner movie, just the last scenes and the credits and almost bursted into tears not knowing what the movie was about even.
First I was shocked over my own gullability, then I decided that it must be him, he has this gift of making unsuspecting audiencemembers burst into tears on cue.


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Giving up.

If one KNOW the battle is already lost then why should one continue? But the question it implies that theres is doubts, so maybe the battle isn't lost after all? Then it would make sense to continue unless one feels the goal is not worth the striving. There is no right and wrong, just follow the heart, then whatever one decides will be ok
When one give up one simply seize to do whatever one were doing that caused one to feel exhausted and hopeless. Sometimes it can be good to give up for a moment to gain energy to continue striving, if one still feel the goal is worth striving for.
There are many ways to gain energy, hope , motviation etc, most of them involves relaxing, affirmation and meditation, but physical activities has proven to have positive effect too. Or just doing something completely different, just for fun. Do something that one KNOWS will make one happy, if only for the moment. Laughing is often the best medicine when giving up starts to become an issue. It's good to remember to not take life so seriously in between the battles.


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